Too Hard to See

The brain is the king,
it makes the rules.
Yet the heart lives on,
it makes us the fools.

I saw you today,
so happy, so free.
It's what I wanted,
how I knew you should be.

It's clear I miss you.
It's a fact so true,
I admit my loss
The greatest love I knew.

Why, oh why
did I let you go,
I toil and toss,
from the answer I know.

You had to be free,
I did what I must.
The hardest choice
putting love over lust.

I'm lost it's true,
and it hurts me so,
but I did it for you,
not to be your foe.

I wasn't right
and only I knew,
but it pains me so,
to pass that clue.

What did I feel
and was it love?
Was it given to me
from the heavens above?

I weep, and weep,
from a loss I have made.
Yet from your sight
I will slowly fade.

I did what was right,
or so I thought.
Yet I miss you now
despite lessons taught.

It burns and burns,
so deep in my chest.
To know I could never
be your very best.

Move on, move on
but go without me,
I wish you the best,
but it's too hard to see.

Was it love we had?
I'll never know,
but you're built to love
and I'm just a show.

Move on, move on,
but go without me,
I wish you the best,
but it's too hard to see.

Fire and ice

It's easy to see
the stars at ease.
It's easy to be
a leaf in the breeze.

We look out upon
the stars above,
we see we're a pawn
to god's real love.

We see the same stars,
we have the same eyes.
In the back of our cars
we continued our lies.

Two blanks in their frames,
the memories that come.
We love what remains,
when we had someone.

And now we're alone,
and here we shall stay.
Is it better to roam,
or to make the play?

My red is no more
and it's not all the same.
do I miss her soft kiss,
or just hate the pain?

Turn away love,
alone once again.
On these cold, cold nights
Needing more than a friend.

The one always there,
The hardest to read.
The tallest tree
And the youngest seed.

The happiest love,
the hardest hate,
the lush green garden
and the rust on the gate.

Who are you,
to fill a hole,
a burning chasm
left in the soul?

Try as we do,
I can't move past.
Are you a healing bone,
or the plaster cast?

But I love your laugh,
I long for your kiss.
And on this cold mountain night
It is you that I miss.

It's that longing that drives,
that longing that spurs.
The longing I seek
That can only be hers.

You are the ice
that would fight her fire.
You are the one
That spurs my desire.