Thrashing

Feelings are gained, so quickly they're lost,
So far lost at such deep cost.
Confusion the inception,
yet forward the direction.
Onward to pain without heart's discretion.
What I see, I've seen before,
The same broken scene, but without the whore.

A brain rots with regret and rage,
thoughts lash out from inside their cage.
In losing control does the truth come out?
Does it let the anger scream and shout?
Where's the truth in all this rubble?
Where's the end to all this trouble?
I have replaced, and replaced i've been
but I'm bleeding out, despite this grin.
You saw the truth, yet you can't let go,
I've always known I'm just a show.

I'm stuck on you and I don't know why
but I knew no longer could I tell my lie.
Yet deep in me I boil and thrash.
Enough to drink and I became quite rash.
My thoughts were lost, all thought was gone,
from only my soul did my actions spawn.
In a fit of rage and lust and pain
I flooded you with so much rain.
From there I came slowly back
I arose and saw the final crack.

Feelings are gained, so quickly they're lost,
So far lost at such deep cost.
Confusion the inception,
yet forward the direction.
Onward to pain without brain's discretion.
What I see, I've seen before,
The same broken scene, but I'm the whore.